CHOKE ME OUT!

Today I was coming from a job in the city, and I stop to see if Zion school had their drive-by graduation and they were.

So I park my car down from the school and walk up as I did not want Joyce Crazy self to see me...

Well, I do not know how or who told her, as the only person I saw that knew me was Zion...

Well, I was on the other side of the school standing outside with others and 3 older sisters were standing near me.

Now, Joyce walked her ass over to me and go up in my face and spit on me; she started screaming at me, and those ladies ask her what was wrong with her.

Now, she did all this because she knows that I am not going to touch her as I do not hit women, just something that I do not do.

Next, she called 911 and was telling lies to them on the phone as she wanted them to come and Choke me out.

 Now, this was during graduation, and that just made it crazier.. There was a police car there with two female CPD as they were there to escort the students in their cars..

So 911 told her that it was a car there and she went over to them. I kept taking pictures as she told more lies to them.

After Zion's name was called, I walked over to the car and spoke with the officers, and I do not know what she told them besides telling lies that I had an OP on me, and they said they told her I do Not. ..

Now, what do I do; you see calling the police on Black men is not known just what White Women; sad as it is; black women have been doing this for years.. One thing that my dad told me that stands true today; any women that call the police on you; do not give a dam if you live or die..

I was in a fuck up mood; the police could have come, and that shit could have got south, but like I said, what can a black man do? 

I do not have ONE woman in my family that will check her; my Aunts, mother, and all others just let her do this; get into my face, spit on me, and wow… I started recording as it was not the first thing that came to my mind.

FYI, the picture of Zion was taking for me by one of those older ladies.. she took my phone and said she was going to get me a picture of my Son;  and she told Joyce to get out of the picture. Joyce did not know she was taking the picture for me.

Now I want you to tell me what this does for Zion; how is this mental healthy for him? It is not, and I keep saying over and over that Joyce is Bipolar; as you do not grow out of that, or overcome that. She was in my face like she has done something.

The seed was planted in Zion from Danny and me; we are the ones that made sure he has the best school, and his environment was where he could grow to be whatever he wanted to be..  What was done to this boy will do down in history how to destroy black boys.

Call the Police?

I was reading a story on someone page about calling the police, and I do not call them; I do not care what the reason or what is going on; I do not call the police as I do not trust them; black, white, brown, or yellow; they all police to me.

True story, when Joyce attack Danny in my house I called the police and I was arrested and taken to jail; everyone in my house knew the truth, but I was still taking to jail and when I asked the Black officer why I was going to jail; his words to me I shit you not; because I was the only man at the house.

Next true story, I made a complaint on that office, and he and a white one made my life a living hell I still filed more complaint. I was pulled over by the white one and was taken to jail for having an Illinois driving license with the name Mahdee Muhammad on it.  Once more, I shit you not, I was charged with having a fake ID. They said I had not legally changed my name.

They pull over was on some bullshit and I got sick during the stop, and per the ambulance driver, the officer and other police were talking about how he needed to justify the pullover. I told you all about the black officer that was not only his supervisor; however, he is a member of Alpha Phi Alpha Frat Inc. (that I had personal dap months before)

They all stood there and made up something to charge me with, and that was the story this is the story they came up with. The officer saw me pulled over sick, and he was there to help me and found out I had a fake ID. If this were not 100% real, some would say that I was making this up.

I had to go to Markham court seven different times over a year before the State of Illinois drops the case.  I had my birth record, my passport, and school record and legal document all to show my name is Mahdee Muhammad, and none of that made one dam difference They only drop the case because they could not get the officer to come to court.

This story is one of the many bullshits I had to deal with when it came to Joyce and the case with Zion and a dirty cook county police, black and white.  For these reasons, I do not call the police as I do not trust them. One of my bros asked the question since he is a police officer now and does that make him different now; for me, that would be a Yes.

You see, I know many police; shit I have one that is like a brother to me, and I know in my heart, in the end, he is police and when on the line, will he support me or his so-called brother in blue and I do not know. What I do know is that I am a black man in America, and I am always going to be one, and for that reason alone, my life is not worth a bucket of warm piss.

The sad part of all this is the fact that as a black man, I fight with black women and men about being black and how I need to forget and forgive as life is too short. I am one black man that does not fear the brothers on the street; I fear those who are police and who think they are not black anymore.

As these black folks do not think they are black anymore; they have somehow overcome their blackness

I get more help from non-black than blacks people; I have more non-black that feel my pain as to many that look like me feels that I need to forget; wow, let that sink in! When you or anyone question my blackness, just know that I will never forget that I am a field negro,

I do not pretend or do I want to be a house negro; as in the end, we all are still just Negros in Master's eyes.

Where are the Black Fathers at?

As I review all these stories in the news about black men being kill, I keep asking the question, where are the fathers at?

We have a problem, and it is nothing new; there are too many young men coming up without a father or father type in their life.

I have been going over in my mind how do I address all the bullshit with Zion; I have done my best to bit my lip and keep my feelings to myself; however, it is about time that I make this clear.

There is nothing; not one thing in this world that is going to keep me from having a father to son talk with Zion when he turns 14 in August. The games that have been played with this young man are criminal in nature and sick in others. Zion is living in a house of prison, and he will know that he does not have to live that way.

To have him begging for love, to want to see his family, and to be lied to time after time breaks my heart. Zion graduated from 8th grade, and he is going to high school in the city, and we are going to get him a laptop and some clothes (he does not and should not have to beg or get anyone hand out cloths). I was told to take the laptop over to someone's house, and Zion might get his birth mother to takes him to get it.

I said HEL No! I am going to send it to him or put it in his hands and let him know do not let anyone take it or sell it. Enough is enough and too much cause the cycle of crazy to never stop. I see and hear about what is being done and how people in my family walk on eggshells as to just see his face or hear his voice is enough for them to pretend this shit is healthy for him.

Fact: Zion had his childhood stolen from him and like it or not; he is about to be a man, and I can live with what I have and will do for him. I do not look back over the years and have any regret as I did all in my power to make sure that he had a life.

I watch his great-grandfather and great-grandmother go crazy; I saw personally how his grandmother would think that she talks to dead people and was not shocked when she was committed to a mental hospital.

What did these people think; that Zion was not going to grow up, that he was going to eat the lies told to him. Like those lock up, he had to survive; he had to play the game, and just as anyone that is held against their will, he had to survive.

Our ex-slave master destroyed black people, and we have allowed their children to do it to us. I only want my children to be better than I; I want them to reach for the starts on my back. In the 14 years of Zion's life, Joyce has cost my family and I over $200k, and I am never going to forget or forgive her. What she did to Zion was never done in love; she does not know how to love as she was never taught what love is.

We have to stop this cycle, I bit my lip about the bullshit that my family has done to me; I bit my lip about the fact that I did not put my hand on David, he wanted me to be a nigga and lay hands on him, and I did my best to let the white man laws do my fighting, and that was dumb for me to think that laws written for him could be used for me.

Let me be clear as I can; we do not have a justice system; that is justice for black people; history shows that we, the ex-slaves, keep looking for justice from a group of people that hate us. My soul cries for my people as I know we are sick, and we are not going to get the help that we need.

I was talking to someone about hate, and they were saying to me that I should forgive those that have caused me harm. I told them BULL; I am a black Jew, and like my Jewish brothers, we do not forget or forgive. I take my hate to the grave.

Do you see clear folks saying they forgive those that do them wrong; hell no; they made a death penalty just for them. Dr, West said it best; Clear folks better be happy that black folk do not do onto them as they did onto us.

However, it will come a day that we will seek a tooth for a tooth!