Chickens Coming Home

Why; this is something that I keep asking myself, and it seems that the answer will never be given. For others, they feel that I should just let it go and accept what happened as his will; I ask the question who is “his,” and didn’t he give me the power within to keep on fighting? I m a fighter, and that is all I know how to do; to give up is just not the man that I am.

My oldest came home from school as he has not been backed up this way in about three years. He wanted to stay in the room on the top floor as it has this built-in bookshelf that he can store his books on. However, he did not want to stay there once he saw the room as that was to have been Zion room, and it has all these things in there.

Now, this fact is true; when Judge Susan Kennedy-Sullivan took Zion from us; David Gotzh, who was his GAL was so dammed mental sick with hate; that he did not want Zion to take anything. Joyce's IQ and thinking are no higher than a person in 8th grade, so all that she did was under David’s orders. They did not want him to have his clothes, games, books, and all the items that we have got him. These sick people were so built up with hate that they did not want him to take his cell phone, as I quote, he might call us and tells us what is going on.

So, for me, I know that Zion is lost. I know that he is not going to just walk back into our lives and not be affected by what was done. I know of people that have lost a child to death, and I understand the pain that they live with. For us, it is a different pain; as it is not a day, I do not think about Zion and what hell he is dealing with in his life. When I hear about any young man in Chicago that has been killed, I think about Zion.

So, for me, this is a pain of death that comes to me in one way or another each day; it is a pain that was caused solo by the fact that a Raciest wanted to lynch me and the only way he could do it was to hurt Zion. How sick of a person is that; I bet is something was to happen to one of theirs, that would be like chickens coming home to roost. How can a man say that he is a father and go out and hurt other children?

Well, I had to think about the mindset that a person has when they hate someone because of race. Think back to slaver and wonder how the slave owners could do the sick things that they did to the slaves; and their children. Well, to them, they were not people; they were less than that of a dog, and it was common for people to take their dog out back and put them down for anything. So, for David Zion, life was not more than the life of a dog.

I had my son take Zion things and put them away as I did not do this because, for me, I do not want him ever to think that I gave up on him; that I did not fight for him. The mind games that have been done to him will forever scar his life, and when the times comes, I want him to be able to read what took place and understand why. This young man's life was destroyed because to David Gotzh and Judge Susan Kennedy-Sullivan, he was less than their own.

3/5th of a person

What does depression look like, what does it sound like?

It is during this time that more Americans for some reason or another experienced depression, and for many of them, they do not see the end of the year; as it has been said to me, not everyone will see you in the next year or finished the year with you.

I can say that I know that I am depressed and have been such for over a year, and talking to someone about it would not help. I live my life unable to sleep at night as I find myself up by 3 am just looking into my life, and I feel empty inside. As I said for many, they cannot see this as I do a great job of masking my depression; and I am thankful that I older and smarter than I used to be.

A younger me would look for someone to blame; I would look for someone to vent my pain on. The reason that I am in this position has to do with the fact that I was born to Negro parents, and there is nothing in this world that will change this fact. All the money in the world will not change the fact that to people like Judge Susan Kennedy-Sullivan, CVLS, and David Gotzh, I am a Negro and a 2nd class person that does not have the same rights as others.

I find myself looking up into the sky on my way south, thinking about what has changed in over 100 years in American when it comes to race. The answer is nothing, not a dam thing. Yes, I can ride on the bus, spend my money and go to the movies with my ex-slave master; however, I am still not considering his equal. We both bleed; we both cry, and I am sure that we both love our children.

However, to my ex-slave master, my children's life is worthless to him; he still looks at them and me as 3/5th of a person whom life is not worth a bucket of dog shit. In fact, to my ex-slave master, a dog and cat life is worth more than mines. There is nothing, and I say this with all that I have in my soul; there is nothing that will bring an end to racisms in American. As long as we have an American, we will have those that think they are better solo due to their skin.

Tonight as young children get ready to go to bed with the dreams of opening gifts in the morning I cannot help but think about Zion and the fact that race is the reason that he is not in his home; in his bed; going to bed after he has been up all day trying to court gifts and make sure he has more than his brothers and sisters.

Like children would do he would do his best to guess what he had and he knew that mom and dad were the ones to buy his gifts; however, he wanted to put cookies out; I guess they were for me as I was going to be the one putting anything together. It is these simple things in life that make a child a child; it is the innocent in children that all black children should be able to have. 

What makes their children any better; what makes their son any better than mines? Judge Susan Kennedy-Sullivan talks about a young 12-year-old black boy should not have dreams he should not play baseball like white boys; he should not have dreams of growing up to play baseball as he is just a negro and should be in jail or dead by the time he reaches 18. This is what they do best in cook county; they put young black boys into these boxes where there is no hope.

I want to say that I cannot; I cannot stand with a passion how people love to give toys and bags a food to black children during this time of year. We have such a lack of understanding of history that we do not know where this tradition comes from. The slave masters use to give treats and gifts to the slave during this time to paly this psychology fuck game on them. Beat their ass all year and give them that one day to look for where the beating would stop.

As mental abuse is far worse than physical abuse, as the scars will heal; however, the mind would carry that abuse around and pass it on down to their child. I have been very soft-spoken, and I have done my best to rely on my slave master courts for justice; however, he has taught me a hard lesson; righteousness is not for the negro; it is just for him and his children.

“I am American”

As I waited to leave, it kept going thought my mind that I was going back to being a nigga; I was no longer just a man, I had to come back to the label that was put on me by my ex-slave masters. Here in American, we have one box that we all must check; they allow some to not even check the sex box anymore; however, that one that deals with race is a must.

I cannot be a man; I cannot just be me; I must be a black; or African American or nigga. Why is this? I sat on the plane crying to myself, and the funny thing is not too many people notice this. I could not let my tears be seen as to be a black man with the last name Muhammad in American might just get me kick off that flight. As I can be a white want in a White Sheet with a cross on it and I will get a first-class seat.

I hate it, no, I do not think that you all understand I HATE being a label, and I hate the fact that I live in a land that we love to say that we are free. I came onto my block last night after midnight, and two white policemen were standing in the road. On a street that has nothing but homes. They had flashlights out looking into cars.

Now what were they looking for, I would guess seat belts; however, for a nigga in American all that I could think about is how I just left Cuba and come back to the USA and in one wrong move, I could have my life taking. These cops had on mask covering their faces (it was cold out last night), and the only reason I knew they were police were due to the fact that there was a police car parked.

Tell me once more, where do I live? What freedom do I have; yes, I can live to buy items that I do not want or need; I can eat myself into a health issue, and I can as of 1/1/20 used drugs out in the open if I choose. However, I still can lose my life just for being a black man in a land where I am hated for just being a black man.

Next week I have court as my case with CVLS is up, and once more I will have to deal with their lawyers trying to get the case toss; as this time it is still about the facts that they feel it is ok to be a racist as that is the American way. We have a man in the White House that is proud of this fact, so why can’t CVLS have lawyers working for them, that feels the same way is what they say.

I am in so much pain, and I know that this is taking about ten years off my life. It is not one day that does not pass that I do not think about Zion or what was done to him, and for what every life that I have on this earth, that is no money in the world that will replace that hole in my soul. I am never going to forgive or forget Judge Susan Kennedy-Sullivan, David Gotzh, or CVLS. As they destroyed my family for just one reason and only one RACE!

I was told that they could do whatever they want; we might not live in Cuba; but as a black person in American, I do not live any differs. If you have never been to Cuba, please do not try and tell me how much better it is here in American, as you do not know what you talk about, or you are not a black person. As a black man, I know that at any giving date or time, I can have my life taking from me, and not one tear would be drop; as that is the American, I know.

So yes, I am an angry black man, as I am so angry that I cannot just be a man; I have to be a label that is placed on me. I ask someone from Cuba what race are you; they look at me and say, “I am Cuban” Light, dark as night; the answer does not change, “I am Cuban.” Try that in American; when someone asks you what you are just say “I am American,” you will find out very fast what you are. If you are a person of color and do this, you might be told as the handcuff is going on.

Born Day!

Well, it is another year in the books for me as I can look back over 2019 as the Anniversary of my date of being born falls on 12/15 with just 16 days left before we bring in a new year. This year I am going to enjoy my day in Cuba. Many have asked me why Cuba; what is about this place that keeps me coming back.

Well, let me drop some knowledge on many of you as I have been told; Oh, that place is a communists' place, and they do not have a system of justice. They only thing different about Cuba and Cook County is the fact that when they BUCK you, it is in Spanish. Pleases stop thinking that we who live in American are so free and we have so many rights.

I have witnessed, not been told, or read in a book; I witness with my own eyes how the so-called justice system that we think we have is a joke. We have judges that do not follow the rules of law, and they do this because they know that they can get away with it. I was told we have a system of checks and balances in place. Let me be clear; it would take an act of your god to overturn anything a judge does. That is why there are so many innocence black men sitting in jail or who have been put to death. 

A judge who allows perjury in their courtroom; allows forge and fake documents, and you want to tell me, but there was proof. As I have been taught, it is not what you say but what you can prove; well in cook county, that is not true. Well, some will say that we have lawyers that are there to make sure that the judge does their job. Oh yes, lawyers like David Gotzh; he is just like all those public defenders that know their client did nothing, however, tell them to plea just so that they can go home or not get put to death.

This man is a White Nationalist that made it clear, he does not like Nigga’s, and he wishes they would go away. The so-called ARDC and Judicial Board are a Joke, as their only job is to pretend that they are doing a job. We have people in political office who cover their eyes to injustice as it does not get them to a higher position, like Drug Police for the state. I only question will she overlook all the un-justice that will take place in that position as she did in her district?

Do not question my facts as I have the proof to support everything that I speak about, I have it, and the problem is that no one cares. The system we have in place is one that is built on racism and will live off that; as long as it is only black men going and being put to death, their systems work. In Cuba, when they do this to someone, it is not about the skin but the politics. 

I come to Cuba to be Free, kind of fuck up that I must come to a so-called communists place to be a free black man. However, they do not see me as such; they do not judge me or treat me different due to my skin, and some do not even know that I am American; until I open up and speak. I can walk around with the freedom that I will not get stopped for just being black. No shopping while black, cabs do not pass me up due to being black, and I do not get the eating out while black treatment.

You do not have to trust what I say, as I am sure that many of you have been brainwash into the false belief that if it is not in a red, white, and blue flag, it is not right.  Our so-called justice system is set up so that 99 guilty men can go free, just to save that one innocence. Well, that is backward as we kill and lock up 99 innocence just to get that one we think is guilty.

As I said, I am sure that many of you will read this and totally disagree with it; I am sure that some of your work in this system that area to brainwash or enjoy the fact that you can drive that nice car and you are not going to say anything. It has been asked how could slaver in American last longer her than any place before; well comfortable, some too many slaves enjoy having a room in master’s house, being able to eat the scraps from his table. Same Today!

Private Investigator

I have noticed on the news they have been pushing adoptions and have been showing cases. Now, why is it that there are so many Clear folks’ adoption of young black children?

Now I do not care about this; what gets me is there are too many sisters and brothers that could be doing the same; however, you all want to adopt cats; doges, goats, and anything but a little black child.  Let me be clear we did not attempt to adopt Zion until 2017 because we were told that he would get money for school. Once I was told that was just another DCFS lie; we did the paperwork.

It is a fact that we were in court doing the adoption, and Judge Susan Kennedy-Sullivan and David Gotzh said to me in my face that they were going to everything in their power to stop it. FACT; the Judge said in court on the record that we should have come to her courtroom, but we were up in the adoption court trying to adopt him. 

I shit you not, and I do not joke about this fact, and it makes me question why? Why did the Judge not want us to adopt Zion? Let see all our children have or will get a degree; none of them have been in jail; they are not going around doing drugs, and Zion was an A student. So, on paper, we were doing a dam good job. It is a fact that the Judge remarks on what a great job we were doing and how she wanted to stop that.

I have been told that I need to move on, or what I should just let this go; WHAT THE FUCK! We had a child taking from us; we had a part of our lives ripped out from under us, and it was solo done because a RACISTS wanted such; I will be dammed or dead before I let this go. I am going to fight with the last breath that I have, and I want to be clear DAVID GOTZH did this, and if you hire him for anything, you are a dam FOOL!

I put my life on the fact that this man fake paperwork in this case; he lied and broke the law and was able to do it because he is a white man, and in Cook County, you can get away with murder if you are. What happens in Cook County would have never happened in the deep woods of Mississippi, as they might hate my black skin, but they will say we are not paying to take care of that black child. These so-called Democrats in this state look at the poor as their voting base.

Keep black folks dumb; on food stamps, depending on the government to take care of them and you build a voting base that you will never lose. Vote Democrat and get link; section 8 housing and never have to work a day in your life. Have many babies and don’t worry about taking care of them as the State will do that (and lock them up to get paid back).

I have seen grown black men talking about passing their section 8 down and how, when they get their money on their link, they are going to eat well. The majority of us would love to get some link; the only difference is that we want it for that come up; they want it to live. I wish one of my children would say to me that they are waiting on their link to eat; or that they are going to move to another state to get them some section 8. Hell no, but Joyce wanted and needed Zion back for this reason, and Davide Gotzh helps her get it.

I have a pended civil case where I am taking CVLS and David Gotzh to court for violating my rights; I have been trying to get a lawyer to take this case; however, I am suing lawyers and not too many want to do it. So, like everything in my life, I must put on my big boys’ shoes and do it myself.

I need to find a private investigator in Ohio and Washington State as I have run into a roadblock getting more information on David Gotzh; if you know, anyone let me know.

Endangered Species.

I have to come back to Crook County as I have court on Thursday. I am doing all that I can to hold up the light that so many before me carried; this case is with Menard and the fact that they have a practice of stopping black shoppers and shaking them down for payoff.

The way it was told to me is that Jay (black LP) will target blacks’ folks that come into the store and follow them as he is racial profiling them. This is what he did to me. Now, case law is clear on this, and to prove a case, you must be stopped or accused of shoplifting.

Now, this was done to me, and yet the lawyers are trying to say that I should not be able to argue the case law that I site because I was not searched, and I was allowed to leave. Now, the only reason that I was is that I am not a dumb ass nigga.

Now, when he touches me outside the store, that is assault as he does not have the legal right to touch me at all; and he sure in hell cannot do it outside the store. Next to tell me that I was going to pay for a tool that was on display that I used was a Joke to me.

However, I have been told many stories about this man and what he has been doing to black shoppers. Now stop and frisk only work, due to the playing the odds. As I explain to one of the LP guys, if you stop or watch all Clear folks that come into the store, you will have a high number of cases on them as that is all you target.

It is has been said by some that I look for issues and problems or that I am like glue when it comes to them. Well, I have a father of 3 black boys, and I must fight so that they do not. I have less year ahead, and I am not going to spend them on dumb shit. I do not waste my time on such. I am a black father before I am anything else. It is too bad that too many of you do not get this.

When my time upon this earth comes to an end, I will be happy if the only people that see me off are my children, as I know that I have done the job that I was put on this earth to do. And this is to be the best dad that I can. I don’t care about who else like me or not, as they are the only ones who respect what I want or need.

I am going after CVLS, David Gotzh, and Judge Susan Kennedy-Sullivan due to the fact that they have a system in place that is set out to destroy young black boys, and this is something that I cannot live with it.

I do not care what you do in your life or who you hate or dislike; however when you use your powers to hurt young black boys-based solo on race, I have a problem with that.

In American, the biggest problem that we have is race! We see everything from a black and white point of view, and it is and will always be in the fabric of American. I have look David Gotzh in his eyes, and I have seen the devil that he is.  I have talked to him, and I know that he is not a real man and will never be one. A real man does not use women and children; only a punk would do such.

Our ex-slave masters did this; they use the act of breaking a man down before his woman and children to make him less, as the fear of the black man is real. They do not fear black women, as they know she is still a woman and can be controlled. However, the fear of the black man is genuine; that is how you destroy a race of people, you destroy their men.

Sad to say, we (black men) have been destroyed, so much we should be listed as an endangered species.