Dream Killers!

 

It has been just over two years since Zion life was changed, and it was not for the best; it was only for one main reason, and it is this reason why I can say that I will never in my lifetime forgive those that had a hand into what was done to him. I cannot say that I wish well on them, as I do not. I wish them the same pain that Zion has to live with; I wish they live with a loss so bad that it makes them wish they were no longer alive. Yes, I carry this feeling of intense hate, and sorry it is not going anywhere.

My feeling comes from seeing how as a black man, I have to cry at the state of black Americans; it brings tears to my eyes that so many years after being placed into the chains as slaves, we have not advanced as we are still slaves. I have been looking to see what has become Judge Susan Kennedy-Sullivan; who life has she fucked up? I have been looking for news on David Gotzh as I am sure that he is still the world's worst lawyer who should have been disbarred; however, those working at CVLS made sure that did not happen.

CVLS; a system that is only around because young black children are being destroyed by a court system whose sole purpose is to make sure more young black boys never make it. How dare does a Chief Judge Evans talk about all that he has done; this man is no better than a Justice Thomann’s; to tell the truth, I have more respect for Justice Thomas than him; at least he does not hide his main agenda.

Year after year, this man has been elected Chief Judge, and year after year, he does nothing but put judges into courtrooms to destroy black people. We want to look at why there are so many young black men going to jail or being killed in the streets; well, all we have to do is look at the system that is in place to make sure that this takes place.

I think about the fact that Zion is living in a house that does not know love, with a psychologically crazy person, getting a less than perfect education. Someone said to me; he is getting good grades as he got A’s. Now, he gets those grades at a school that all you must do is put your name on your paper, and you get a C.

I wanted more for Zion; I wanted the world to be in his hand; I wanted this young man to want for nothing but to become all that his dreams could reach for. Now, all he can dream about is getting to the age of being able to speak, the age of being free from the prison he lives in. What a joke; someone said to me that he seems happy; if you talk to some of those young men lock up in jail for life, they seem happy as they know they are there for life, so why wear your pain on your shoulder.

COVID-!9 has taken the lives of over 260k in America; however, it just does not seem to take the life of a few that I can name and have. I told you all that I have hated; I am not your Negro, I am just as vengeful as the Jews that read about the stories of what their loved ones have to deal with at the hands of the Nazi. Well, Zion must deal with this same pain. To tell me that I need to forgive; well, I will do that when I am dead!

When you snatch a child's dream and make him or she must grow up faster, you make these young black men and women that many like to say seem much older than their age. If you had to live this life that many of them do, you would also be a 12-year-old walking about the problems of a 30-year-old on your back. I bet none of those that I have name wish what happen to Zion on their own Child, but I do!

KKK wear Black Now!

They must teach how to lie to become a judge; as I see that Judge Amy Coney Barrett says the same BS that Judge Susan Kennedy-Sullivan said, “it is not the job of a judge to legislate from the bench.”

I joke not that is the same bull she said as she was running for the appellate court. That is all she did and does; she allowed her personal hate for me as a black man to cloud her mind, and she used a little black boy to hurt me, and all those so-called Black Democrat in cook county did not say anything.

I see Judge Barrett as a young Susan Kennedy-Sullivan, and just because she has black children does not take away from anything, as many slave masters had black children, and they beat them just as they did the other slaves.

I do not trust Judges as they are no better than any other racist in a white sheet; they have on a black one and no hood. The fact that Judge Barrett will help destroy all those called rights that blacks, gays, and others have got over the years is a statement to what America is and will always be.

Many did not vote as they said what do they have to lose; well, I guess in time you all will see. I vote for judges that I know; I vote for judges that show me that they might be racist; however, they check the sheet at the door. Now, you do not have to be White to be racist; there are black and Hispanic judges that hate black men and women, just as much as the white one; Ask Chief Judge Evans.

The black men have become the whipping boy for all the ills in society; we are hated by all and loved by none. I have seen black judge sit back and say nothing; I wanted to ask some of them; are they a judge; as they pretend like they cannot speak, or did they have to check in their blackness at the door (as our first black President had to).

I have looked over the ballot and cannot find Judge Susan Kennedy-Sullivan's name on it I guess she had her husband called in one of his favor to keep her seat without running.  I am sure that someone knows Chief Judge Evans and I would like for you to ask him for me; at what point did he stop being a black man, and at what point did he start selling black men to Master?

I do not support him, and I see no difference I having him in that seat then a proud card carry member of the KKK; as I think about it; it might be better to have that KKK member as history did teach us that even them person found a way to change and stop hating blacks and apply the law. IE; Justice Hugo Black

Happy Born Day, Big Z.

 Happy Born Day, Big Z.

What more can I say that has not been said; today, Zion turns 14, and he is not allowed to call, text, or spend it with his family.

I do not care who it is; you cannot and should not make anyone stay where they are not happy. If you do, this person will grow to hate you as what you do to them is not out of love but out of your selfishness.

Joyce has forbidden Zion from calling us; she has mentally abused this young man it was done with the help of one DAVID GOTZH; CVLS and JUDGE SUSAN KENNEDY-SULLIVAN.

Now, this is a fact that when Zion was asked over and over where did he want to live, he said with the only mom and dad he knew and loved. He did not say this because he was young; he said this because he knew in his heart what true love is and was.

I keep saying time moves on, and what is being done to him at 14 cannot be done at 18. When young people run away from their homes or want to leave, we need to stop asking what is wrong with them and ask what is wrong at the place called “home.”

Joyce, I can you that when Zion finds out all that you did to him and the reason that you did it; he will HATE you. He will hate you as you destroyed his life; you were so jealous of that life that he had that you mouth the words out of your mouth “why does he get this, and I do not!” You wanted to know why Zion was getting to enjoy life; why he was getting b-day parties; why he had a life that you would never have.

I love each and all my children, and I can tell you any parents worth their weight wants more for their children than they have. I want each one of mines to never want; to never go without and to never want anything in life and not be able to get it. We preach education; we preached to the point that each one of them would tell you; they were going to college. We made sure that those around them were only going to uplift them, not show them a life of drugs and gangs.

It kills me to see so many young black boys that will never have a chance in life and to think that this what Joyce; David and Judge Kennedy-Sullivan wanted for Zion. I feel that I own Zion more; I owe him this because it was me that made sure he was born.

Zion will know how Joyce came to me wanted money to abort him; she was in a mental hospital trying to abort him, and it was a Christian one, and they would not do that. I did not give her the money for one reason and only one; I did not know her.

There is some cold facts, but they are the FACT. Do not have to take my world; Joyce told the GAL about this; she talks about how she was on the street having sex for money and found out that she had a child that she did not want. This young man came into this world for one reason and only one, and Joyce has been using him since that day.

I'll never forget the day in court when Zion was a baby, and Joyce told the Judge; we could have him, but she wanted the money. She wants to be called mom; shit it takes more than giving birth to a child to be called mom. Now, it is about Section 8 and link. Zion knows that Joyce does not love him like a mom; to this day, when you ask him, and he does not fear being beat, he will tell you who his Real Mom is.

Soon, he will be Free; Zion is not a child; he is 14, and he can choose to live the life that does; or walk away from it, which is why he is a prisoner. I do not lie about these facts as “it is what it is”!

Man 2 Man

 

I feel that you judge a man or woman by the person they married and whom they have children with, and as Zion anniversary on his birth approach, I can only judge the new guy in his life-based on the woman he is with.

When you lay up with a Delilah, you are what they say you are.  This guy is living off the back of Zion; he eats food paid for by link from Zion; he lives under a roof that is supplied for by Zion. As such, I ask the question, what type of man is, he?

Time will show everything as there is going to come to a point where Zion can stand up; man, up and speak for himself, and at that point, he will choose the right path. The crimes that have been done to this young man is not the first, and it will not be the last. Young black men are destroyed each day in the courtroom throughout American, and under Judge Susan Kennedy-Sullivan, that is more of the norm; than abnormal.

The fact is that I am free to speak my mind, and everything that I say is not only back up with a long paper trail; it is also well documented in legal drafts. I sent this young man a letter asking to speak with him as he stood there looking like a deer as Joyce was up in my face. He did not grab her; or pull her away; he just stood there, and I wanted to ask him why?

He decided to be with a woman that lies for a hobby, and I want to ask him what makes him think she is going to change; she is a viper that every man that has been in her life comes to knows. As a man, if you are with a woman and no one in her family talks or deals with her, and those who do are bottom feeders, what does that tell you about her? Her mother is crazy as a box of nuts, and she is on pill away from not taking to be the same.

I know that Zion's life now is one of food stamps and public aid, and it is a life that he never knew. For Zion, his birthday was one that he wanted all to have fun; he wanted to be around love; he wanted to have his sister and brothers there, and that boy loved gifts.

I sit and laugh about how his life uses to be and now to live in prison. I want to ask that man, why do you think Joyce will not allow Zion to talk to anyone of us; why does she punish him just because he wants to call his real mom and dad.

As a man, there is no way I can or could be with a woman like her, and I understand there are many men out there that do not care; you have these brothers out here that will lay down with dogs just to eat and sit up and say you ate the man of the house. Sorry but Trump is the man of that house as he is the only that gives you the link to eat; he is the one that gives you the sect 8 to have a roof over your head.

I understand that we as a race are in deep trouble, and most of that trouble is caused by self; it is true that the court fuck up Zion's life, but it was Joyce and Jaimie that put the gas on the fire to destroy yet another black boy. I know that Jamila has a son, and I only hope that the young man does better than from what he comes from. However, when your life is one of lies and living off the tit of the state; you tend to become an adult that lives the same path.

 I am going to keep those recordings as I want to let Zion listen to why she lied; I want him to hear why Jamila destroyed his life; for $110 in link; dam I could have given her that in cash to just tell the truth. For what I have been told and what I know, that is not her fabric as you are what you come from.

As I have said many times, life will kill you, or it will make you. For many young black men, life kills them. Our black boys do not have a chance in hell; they are being raised by mothers that destroy them, and fathers that do not know how to be a man. Racism is real; however, we gaslight much of the pain that within our communities. I will say this to that young man; Man 2 Man talks to me.

Captain of my Soul.

We are the master of our destiny and do not think that for one second or one minute that I have stopped hating David Gotzh or Judge Susan Kennedy Sullivan and Joyce and I still wish them pain in life and I would dance on their gravesite. You, all do not understand, I come from the soul of the real Jews, and I do not love or turn the other cheek and I only stay human because I know that time is on my side.

In ten days, Zion will be 14 and like life he will be able to make his own choices in life and one day he will be a man that will know the truth. Not the lies that have been told to him, or the mental brainwashing that he has been subject to; but he will know that I have been fighting for him; I have gone all the way to the high court in this state and as he knows I did it all for him.

Joyce's life is what it is and there is nothing in the world that will help her; she is and will always be a doormat to one man after another and for me she is nothing. She is the poster child for many women that have children for one reason and only one; to survive.

You see what David and Susan did was personal; it was 100% based solo on Race and Racism and to call her a judge or him a lawyer put a black stain on the terms. They are Child and baby killers. She used her husband coat tail to get to the court as she was not and is not legal smart enough to do it on her own.

David is and will always be a bottom page lawyer. It is people like him that make the good lawyers get a bad rap. As he uses his personal feeling for me to hurt Zion. Call him a man; I would not call him a little boy as he is not a man in my eyes. I think about how he talks to Zion about going to see the “Black Panther” and why would Zion want to see a movie like that.

WOW: this man works for CVLS and the state gives this group money to help blacks; it is no wonder our children are at the bottom of the bucket.

I speak my mind and I do not and will never bit my lip or backtrack on what I feel about those involved in that case and the only regret that I have is that I came back to this state thinking we would get a fair anything.  Now, when he gave my daughter address to Joyce, I did not post his home address and number on social media as I turn the other cheek.

I can tell you this; as a man, I would have beat him like a slave if he was man enough to go toe 2 toe with me. I am not the one; I am not their negro; I am not going to pray for them unless it is for pain in their life. I want to both to feel the pain we did; I want them both to feel the pain of having someone you love taking from you as to me that is JUSTICE.

Wow: you say, how could I have so much anger inside me; ask a Jew what they feel about a Nazi; ask them what they have done to those that caused pain to their love ones. Jews will dig up your bones just to kill you. Jews do not Play. 

What should I do; say that I have moved on; say that I have forgiven; say that what these people did to Zion was just about life. Sorry, I am not that House Nego; I am a real Run-A-way Negro that you can chop off both feet and I am going to run on my hands.

Riddle me this; those that have children; if someone hurts your child do you forgive them; do you walk away and pretend as if they did not? Or do you fight like hell to make them pay? Well, now you know what and why I feel the way that I do.  

Joyce is yet another reason I say to hell with Religious; she calls herself a Jehovah Witness; living with one little boy after another; sucking on the tit of the state of Illinois to live. Is that what “Real Witness” do?

“In the fell clutch of circumstance

    I have not winced nor cried aloud.

Under the bludgeonings of chance

    My head is bloody, but unbowed.

 

Beyond this place of wrath and tears

    Looms but the Horror of the shade,

And yet the menace of the years

    Finds and shall find me unafraid.

 

It matters not how strait the gate,

   How charged with punishments the scroll,

I am the master of my fate,

   I am the captain of my soul.”

CANCER!

At what point do we as black people investigate the person in the mirror and take responsibility for the conditions that we are in?

We have been conditions to look for help from everyone but self. What more can the government, your parents, or for that anyone do for you if you do not do shit for yourself? No one owes you anything, and this welfare mindset is one that only grows like cancer among black people.

Trump is the best thing that happens to black people, and another four years of him will be the best thing as we have cancer that needs to die off so that we can start over fresh and new. I do not understand how we love to talk about the white man and how he keeps his foot on our backs and I see educated black folks on here talking about how hard it is. It is only hard because you have become a mentally lazy person that thinks this government owes you something.

No one is going to save black people, as black people are not savable. I look at the young man who is 25 that shot at the police last week, and I say at what point did someone know that the young man was unsavable?

Yes, it is a fact that at some point, it does not make a difference what you do; you cannot save a person. I think about all that David Gothz and Judge Susan Kennedy-Sullivan did to Zion, and I ask myself who holds 100% responsible for what happened to him? Furthermore, it comes back to Joyce Washington and Jamia.

Both of them chose to lie in court for self-benefits; it was never about what is best for Zion; what is best to make sure that he makes it; have a life; growing up in a healthy home with people that love him. No, it was about what can I get from the government to help me, and for them, it was benefits of food stamps.

Now, I have no problem with anyone getting food stamps; what I have a problem with is when you get them to survey. I have been in this conversation with others about how white men benefit from the government more than anyone.

He does; however, he takes to them to build on what he has; not to live day-to-day. The government just cut the $500 unemployment, and I do not care; why?

For the past four months, many have been sitting at home, not doing shit but waiting on that link card or that check to hit. Where they out looking to make a job, but looking for a job, go out, and make a job. I was painting my porch yesterday, and I watch; I watch as the Hispanic men and women near me came home from doing some type of work; as the sister down the street was playing music and cooking on the front porch as her link just came in. The brothers next door had been sitting out since 6 am drinking cheap ass hot beer.

Now, what is wrong with those pictures? We just do not get it, and I am sorry those days of let us try are over; we are at the stage where we want a handout. I know the story; I know many of us feel that we are owed something for what our family did to build the US.; however, what are you doing now to keep building on it?

I am not one to say that anyone can make it; as sorry they cannot; you become what you know and what you know is a life of nothing. Education is the only way that a black person is going to stop living a life of hand-out. Black people do you know that we hand down link cards and section 8 to our children like that is something to be proud of. I see many talking about how they do not have a laptop so that their child can do their schoolwork; well, if your child does not have one, that is your fault.

You can find money to get high; you can find money to give to the shoe company; hair company, to any and all but you, cannot find money to invest in your own child; that is not the government's fault or job. We are a dam joke; our ex-slave master gave us a god and got our dumb ass up in churches prying for him to help us; shit helps yourself.

I look at the young man that is now dating Joyce and I have no respect for him, and to me, he is not a man. How in hell can you call yourself a man when you are living and eating on the life of a child. As a man, what you lay down with is what you are; the same goes for a woman. COVID-19 is doing what the government could not do; it is killing off people at a rate that only helps the economy.

Give any other group one year of free help and they are going to come out at the end of that year, making it on their own; we get ten years of free help, and we are looking for another 10. I do not know how we got to that point; what I do know is that in able to get rid of cancer, you have to kill it off so that it cannot grow; well, we have cancer.

In 2020 we are not going to vote in the numbers that we need, and once more, we are going to need the help of our ex-slave master children to save us, as we are like children and will not do for self.

If I am wrong, show me. I look at those in my own family, and I walk away from them as they are no better; they turned a blind eye as they have this same cancer.

Cream Always Floats

It has been some time since I have blogged.  COVID-19 and all the unrest in America have made it hard not to cry over what life Zion must be living. The last that we talked to or saw him was just before he graduated from 8th grade. Joyce's bipolar was on full force that day as she verbally attacked me and spat in my face. I filled a police report; however, just like Cook County...nothing was done.

If I had done to Joyce what she did to me, they would have locked me up on-site because Cook County is known for putting black men in jail. In that respect, it seems American is good at that.

Well, I had gotten Zion a laptop for high school and was going to send it to him; however, I made up my mind that I am not going to allow Joyce or anyone to keep playing games.

Zion needs so much, and it is deplorable that he is in a home with a woman that is still using her body to live and using Zion to get a Link for housing, then allowing another man to reside in said house. I never understood how a man could say he is the man of the house when it is a section 8 house. Alternatively, how he can say that he is a man when he is eating from a table that is paid for by Link in the name of a minor.

I think that our public aid system is a joke! Its primary purpose is to keep poor people in a poor mindset. So they do not have to work. The get Link and end up having many children.  So, I question what the motivation for anyone is to work and do better in life when doing such will cost them free housing and food.

I want to ask the Mayor of Chicago what her mission statement for the city is.  I see her talking about how the shootings and killings need to stop; however, I do not really think that she wants them to stop. Too many people are making money off these young black and brown boys killing each other. Trust me, not one of them wants to bring an end to the crime.

I want to ask the Cook County State’s Attorney Fox how it is that I file a police report, and nothing is done, but Joyce can spit in my face, and the police do nothing. Why call the police when it seems that their mission is to only arrest as many black men as they can.

Zion will get some public aid laptop or, I am sure, one of these so-called helps the poor give away laptops to black students with the hope that mothers like Joyce do not sell them. I know that this will pass. I know that one day Zion is going to reach an age that he is going to say enough is enough. He surrounded by people with no hopes or dreams.  He has to motivate himself since he does not have anyone in his life to push him.

He is around people that live off public help, and I understand that these big companies are the main ones getting public help. You need to understand the mindset, though; they get public help to make millions, not to get a Link to feed themselves with.

I was at that 8th-grade graduation and the only ones with masks on where the non-black teachers. I looked around and was just shocked at how in 2020, the slave mindset is still in full effect. I do not expect anyone to reach out to me and talk to me about this, because this is a conversation that they do not want to have.

I am going to end on this note.  I will be voting for Vice President Biden in this upcoming election; however, in my soul, I would love to see Trump win. In the next four years, Trump can do more to help black folks than Biden will. We need someone to come and just cut us off; take away all the public help and force us to do better... and yes, some will not make it, but the cream always floats to the top.